last night was really wonderful.
cuddled with Brianna and Revill ( i would include Jeff, but he's an abusive cuddler).
It was good to be warm, and feel comfortable and loved.

Brianna and I are getting tattoos together over Thanksgiving break in Long Island.
Tattoo #2-I am so ready for this.
yes indeed.

I need to be closer to Caroline.
I miss her too much, all the time. I just think we'd both be happier people if there weren't 3000 miles between us.


I want to see everything and do everything and taste everything.
I need to get the sweetest summer job ever.
I need to be in Oregon this summer, as much as it pains me.
I need to get a car, and a house, and I need my dog.
I need to be an adult.
all at once and right now.

the biggest flaw of the maple syrup state:

i am too far away from a decent burrito restaurant.
i need to get to California.
and fast.

dear vermont:
while i am not a fan of being cold...you are wonderful.
thank you for magic hat.

<3-the drunk formerly known as candy jean.

open the eyes of my heart lord,
open the eyes of my heart,
help me to see you,
help me to see you.

see you high and lifted up.
shining in the light of your glory,
pour out your power and love,
as we sing holy, holy holy...

somehow i've become responsible for the spirtual development of the youth of this town.
god, grant me strength.

the last time i put my past in a box, i threw it away.

i let go a long time ago,
why is she still holding on?

let it all run off my back-okay.

new words, old thoughts

"you get what you get, so don't throw a fit."
everything I've ever wanted is all coming together in a mystical way.
i just need to keep it all together, and keep the bottom from dropping out.
don't fold to the pressure, smith.
man-up.

coffeehouse bandit.